I sit alone some nights and I have this really empty feeling. I can’t explain it but even being around people only creates a mask for what I’m feeling.
I sometimes think that I could be truth, its almost as if my heart is aching for something. It’s as if some moments I awaken and become aware of how fragile life is, and how all we have is only here for a moment, that any day this could all be gone… And when I say any… I literally mean that in an instant this could all be taken away, in more than one way.
You lose someone you love and you lose the world, you’re now in a place that person isn’t it’s almost as if you’ve died. It’s scary at times how quickly things can change and how much we can hurt.
Thinking at the the way the world is I’ve noticed when we are with our friends we are so much happier, that companionship and unity really bring about the better sides of us, it brings about a light from within ourselves we can’t seem to find ourselves.
A good example of this is how you can love someone and see someone 10000x more than we could love ourselves, and I wonder why if someone else can love us that much. can’t we love ourselves like that.
It’s almost as if our biggest enemy, fear, and problem in life, is ourselves.